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[bottledblond]

Not every universe in the far and wide cosmos is as lucky (however unlucky itself that seems) to encounter Thanos during a time where people live who can do something about it. Steve Rogers, a particular version of Steve Rogers who had only just suffered through his first night of basic training in New Jersey as part of the Army’s Project Rebirth and thus had not yet become Captain America, bent to untie his shoes and saw his hands begin to disintegrate. He doesn’t panic, panicking is for people who do not live like every breath is their last. Instead, he blinks in surprise as the barracks fill with shouting. He has time to contemplate two things. One, he wishes he’d done more with his life. And two, he hopes Bucky will do all right.

He’s still thinking about that last issue when he exhales his last in a universe where Captain America never existed and finishes it bent over in the ruins of the barracks, roof half open to the sky and walls a burnt and ashy gray.

It takes him an hour to get to the road and by then, his asthma is already getting the best of him. He blacks out for the second time ‘that day’ and wakes up staring at the ceiling of what is obviously a hospital.

It just doesn’t sound or smell like a hospital. Sure. People are running around and yelling, but it smells painfully clean, artificially so, and there are machines he’s never seen before connected by wires to his body. He does the thing people should never do and yanks them loose. The machines squawk strangely and frantically and Steve is almost out of bed when two large men in green pajamas force him back.

Nothing makes sense to him for days. People come to talk to him, to find out who he is and who his family is. Evidently Steve Rogers is a popular name, because they bring in more people to talk to him, to ask him questions about his life, but no one has any answers.

He explodes, as he’s wont to do when frustrated, demands answers, but nothing they say makes sense.

By then, the war is over. Not World War II, which has evidently been over for over half a century, but this new war. And Bucky Barnes had been told of his presence. Steve is in bed, arms crossed, looking dour and getting an infusion of something that honestly is helping him breathe better when Bucky bursts into his now private room. It’s been two months

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[woundedwinter]

Once the Fellowship make it to Rivendell he has to call a stop to reading. They're both tired after training most of the day and they'll have an early morning tomorrow. He marks his place before closing down his tablet and plugging it in.

"C'mon pal. It's late as fuck and morning is going to come all too soon." Bucky holds up a hand. "I know, with the serum you won't need to sleep as much, but you still need sleep."

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Mouth opening and closing again, all Steve can do is suppress a whine. “You’re at a really good part,” he finally says just as a yawn breaks. He manages not to call Bucky ‘’mom’ as he closes his sketch book.

“We are going to have to make a pact here to finish this mission fast so we can get back to the story,” Steve says, reaching for Bucky’s hand.

He doesn’t feel much like letting go, so he threads their fingers together instead. “Will you stay with me for a little while?”

Bucky will likely shift to the floor but Steve wants to feel that body pressed against him first.

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"Yeah. I'll stay." Bucky's smile is a small and warm thing as he lets Steve tug him towards the bed. It's incredibly soft and overrun with pillows, but with Steve wanting him close, he thinks it'll be okay for the night.

Bucky can close his eyes and fall asleep to the steady and clear sound of Steve's breathing.

[bottledblond]

As tired as Steve is, he doesn’t sleep. He can’t afford to. Bucky is half on top of him, face against his shoulder, and Steve’s arms are tight around him. It feels like it always should have. It’s titillating and leaves his imagination running in all sorts of directions that he simply can’t do anything about but tamp down.

It’s not like they can just kiss for the rest of the night, even if that’s exactly what the twenty-two year old wants to do. They have a job... And Bucky has been keeping it chaste enough to put little pressure on them both but all it really does is leaves Steve wanting more.

When Bucky stirs, Steve has barely shut his eyes. Just as well. He can’t calm his brain down.

[woundedwinter]

Bucky makes a sleepy sound as he reaches up to poke at his face. "C'n hear you thinking punk," he mutters into his skin. "Still got an hour or two before we gotta get up."

The serum reduces their need to sleep, but rest is still important.

And to be honest, Bucky is comfortable right where he is, laying tangled up with Steve in bed. They'll worry about the mission later. Right now everything is still hazy and sleep-soft and he's going to soak it in for as long as he's able.

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For a moment, Steve actually panics over the possibility that Bucky really can hear him thinking. Even though telepathy isn’t one of the serum’s little gifts, of course, the blond still curtails anything untoward he might have in his brain.

He stretches and bends one knee to gently rest it against Bucky’s hip. His fingers make a semi-thoughtless cup against the back of his neck before he lightly scratches short fingernails into his hair.

“Stop being obsessed with trying to hear my thoughts and sleep for another hour or two,” Steve counters.

[woundedwinter]

Bucky hums as Steve moves closer, sighing when he starts scratching through his hair, something he's always been a sucker for. "That's cheating and you know it."

His own hand slips to rest on Steve's chest, thumb moving in a slow sweep back and forth as he listens to his heartbeat. "You're gonna need to rest sometime, pal. What's got you all distracted?"

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Bucky can’t be serious. Steve lifts his head briefly off of the pillow, notes the look of enjoyment but not amusement on the older man’s face, and sighs as his head drops back down. How can this great big idiot not know? Steve closes his eyes on the upward tick of a roll and smooths down the ruffle he’d caused in Bucky’s hair.

“You,” Steve replies with a joking sort of malice in his voice, as if this particular problem is unwanted and annoying. He’s got a whole lot of bare skin against him and license not to be chemically castrated or jailed for liking it.

[woundedwinter]

He cracks an eye open when he feels Steve move, his head dropping back to the pillow with a huff. Bucky opens his eyes completely, shifting to prop himself up on his elbow and then it hits him. They've slept in the same bed before but he's always had a shirt on and last night he hadn't bothered to put one on.

Fingers gently touch his jaw, turning Steve towards him. A smirk of pure mischief curls his lips.

"I think I know how to take care of that particular problem. C'mere."

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Though it’s the exact opposite of what he wants, Steve gently and playfully pushes Bucky’s shoulder away from him. “How is this less distracting?!” he asks in a falsely higher pitched voice, as if he’s fully outraged. “This is just making it worse!”

Of course, he doesn’t want Bucky to go anywhere and if he even tries, Steve plans to grab at his shoulder.

It’s so much harder to know that he can feel this way about Bucky and no one will really judge him. It makes wanting him utterly impossible.

[woundedwinter]

The mock outrage only pulls a laugh from him as he leans in to kiss him soundly and silence any further protest. If Steve really wanted him to stop he'd say so, or even put him through the wall with one good push. So he lets himself enjoy the moment of laying with his best guy and kissing him. In the privacy of the bedroom he can deepen the kiss, taste his lips and not worry about anyone interrupting.

"Making it worse huh?"

[bottledblond]

Steve thinks kissing is the best thing ever. Hopefully Bucky can hear him think that. Hopefully he can understand just how remarkable this is for him. Two months away from his time has opened up his entire self to things he had never thought possible.

He kisses Bucky back with the abandon shown in films, and when the older man corrects him gently with little shifts of his hands or his lips, Steve feels the heat settle into him in areas he didn’t know it could.

Steve’s not a great kisser, but he’s learning. He wraps thin arms around Bucky’s shoulders and really leans into it. There’s a half whine to his voice as his fingers trail down Bucky’s arms and back. He hadn’t known he could be so attracted to someone like this.

[woundedwinter]

They move and shift a little into a more comfortable position with Bucky on his back and Steve curled in close and over him. He wants to give him every opportunity to touch and explore his way through the kisses. Steve is all warmth and enthusiasm and he makes quiet and pleased sounds as they move together.

Bucky hitches his leg close to Steve to give him something to press against, to find a little friction to add to the heat of what they're doing. His hand moves up to sift through his soft hair, groaning quietly into another kiss as heat sears up his spine.

[bottledblond]

In some great moment of desire, Steve somehow manages to shimmy out of his shirt once Bucky is beneath him. The skin to skin contact is almost unreal.

Though Tony had mentioned that physiologically, Steve wouldn’t change too much, his hair has grown thicker and stronger. His arms are still thin, but they don’t feel like they might snap. His chest isn’t concave either, though how the serum alone could change so much without changing much at all is a question for the ages.

It does make holding Steve so much better, though. There’s no chance that Bucky could hurt him accidentally this way. He gives a rough little pant when Bucky shifts and when he realizes just what that knee is for. If it had been possible for his face to grow hotter, it certainly would have.

[woundedwinter]

Everything is better when Steve gets his shirt off. Bucky's hands can map out bare skin and lean limbs, callouses rough on his skin. He breaks the kiss at the sound Steve makes, wanting to sear that sound into his memory forever. "'s okay Steve," he promises him. "I wanna feel you."

And Bucky is swiftly growing hard himself, body shifting restlessly as they trade ever increasingly urgent kisses, his hands wandering along his arms and chest, metal hand solid on his hip to keep Steve close.

[bottledblond]

Bucky’s choppy cut slides between his fingers as the distinctly heavy and solid weight of Bucky’s vibranium fingers touch him. The contrast of his hands is interesting and sensual, leading Steve’s hips to more firmly press against the body beneath him.

He appreciates the other’s gentle coaxing, the promises he makes, but they aren’t necessary. “No one I trust more,” Steve promises, Bucky’s excitement obvious against his upper thighs. “No one I’ve ever wanted more neither.”

Even the Bucky that had left him on Coney Island couldn’t command the attention this one did. It has nothing to do with the metal arm, the sad eyes, or the strength, though. Bucky is Bucky, way deep down where it counts.

This Bucky, out of every other potential iteration, loves him and only him. Wants him and only him.

And that makes all the difference.