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[bottledblond]

Not every universe in the far and wide cosmos is as lucky (however unlucky itself that seems) to encounter Thanos during a time where people live who can do something about it. Steve Rogers, a particular version of Steve Rogers who had only just suffered through his first night of basic training in New Jersey as part of the Army’s Project Rebirth and thus had not yet become Captain America, bent to untie his shoes and saw his hands begin to disintegrate. He doesn’t panic, panicking is for people who do not live like every breath is their last. Instead, he blinks in surprise as the barracks fill with shouting. He has time to contemplate two things. One, he wishes he’d done more with his life. And two, he hopes Bucky will do all right.

He’s still thinking about that last issue when he exhales his last in a universe where Captain America never existed and finishes it bent over in the ruins of the barracks, roof half open to the sky and walls a burnt and ashy gray.

It takes him an hour to get to the road and by then, his asthma is already getting the best of him. He blacks out for the second time ‘that day’ and wakes up staring at the ceiling of what is obviously a hospital.

It just doesn’t sound or smell like a hospital. Sure. People are running around and yelling, but it smells painfully clean, artificially so, and there are machines he’s never seen before connected by wires to his body. He does the thing people should never do and yanks them loose. The machines squawk strangely and frantically and Steve is almost out of bed when two large men in green pajamas force him back.

Nothing makes sense to him for days. People come to talk to him, to find out who he is and who his family is. Evidently Steve Rogers is a popular name, because they bring in more people to talk to him, to ask him questions about his life, but no one has any answers.

He explodes, as he’s wont to do when frustrated, demands answers, but nothing they say makes sense.

By then, the war is over. Not World War II, which has evidently been over for over half a century, but this new war. And Bucky Barnes had been told of his presence. Steve is in bed, arms crossed, looking dour and getting an infusion of something that honestly is helping him breathe better when Bucky bursts into his now private room. It’s been two months

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[woundedwinter]

He snorts and glances over his shoulder at him. "I've met aliens. Does that count?"

"Wait until summer," he taps one of the metal vents in the wall. "Heat in the winter, cool air in the summer. You're gonna love it." Forget flying cars, central heating and air were by far some of his favorite things.

He really should call at least a few people, but for now he settles on texting Sam that Steve is at his place and they need to talk later. It's communication and that's better than what he's been able to manage lately.

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Steve would know Sam. He’d come by the hospital a few times, mostly to talk about nonsense. He hadn’t seemed to have an ulterior motive but Steve was suspicious anyway at first. He didn’t like it when people held back.

And Sam Wilson held everything back.

He would understand why now, of course. But it doesn’t occur to him that the retired Air Force vet who spoke with him about his interests and about how he was getting along happened to know Bucky.

“I’m trying real hard to believe what you’re telling me but— I guess this is some real Yankee in King Arthur’s court stuff. Just reversed. Like if you came back with me. You’d have to sweat in the summer again.” He finally closes the refrigerator and though he leaves the upper cabinets that he can barely reach alone, he does open the tall, thin cupboard to put some cans away.

He’s a little disturbed by the lack of everything inside.

“Do future people not need to eat? Or is like once a day?”

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Bucky's easy smile goes tight and thin at the question and he glances down and away. "I, ah, I haven't done a lot of shopping. Or a lot of cooking."

He should be better than this. He should be stronger.

"I'll get us stocked up soon enough," he promises.

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"You know that I can see you a whole lot better than I used to, right? Oh! I can see you a whole lot better than I used to!" Steve says. He'd mentioned putting glasses in his eyes, but he hadn't actually told Bucky what the doctors had done for him. "They're called contact lenses. You can't even tell I'm wearing them."

Not unless you're a super soldier who had impeccable vision and can absolutely tell that Steve's eyes have an extra rim just outside of the colored portion of his irises.

"So just so you know, I can tell when you're feeling down and out. You just said that you're pretty rich now so... Well the cabinets still look more full than I remember them being." He passes Bucky and gives him a nice and good thud on the upper arm. His intention is to make it sting, but instead, his knuckles hit something solid and his fingertips go numb for a moment as pain lances down his digits. "Ow! What are you wearing!?"

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"You always could see right through me." A fond sort of smile as he nods about the contacts.

He doesn't see the blow coming and can't dodge him in time. "Shit, are you okay?" Only after he's sure Steve didn't hurt himself does he finally peel his gloves off.

His left hand is black and metallic, threaded with gold. He sighs and shucks his jacket next so Steve can see most of the vibranium arm. "It's a prosthetic. I lost my arm in the war."

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Steve says he’ll live to draw another day, but he does pump his fingers in and out from the center of his palm a few times to get the blood flowing again. He’s about to crack some joke but Bucky’s revelation leaves his mouth momentarily dry.

Though he should ask first, he forgets that they aren’t completely on the same page here and his fingers, the ones not still tingling a bit, reach out to touch the curve of jointed together metal.

It’s beautiful in the way it’s made, in how perfectly it resembles an arm. It’s nothing like the science fiction movies of boxy pieces of metal.

They aren’t living on the moon but they’re giving people limbs back cast in something more gorgeous than flesh.

Sorry, Buck, if the stroking doesn’t sit well with you because Steve isn’t thinking about helping himself right now.

“Lost your arm on top of the rest? I’m real sorry to hear it but.... this is a pretty great replacement. Amazing.” Steve means it in the genuine sense of the word, not the way that people his age now a days say it on social media.

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Bucky tilts his arm so Steve can examine it. There's no pity in his expression, only wonder. He can feel the touches too, the gentle pass of his fingers along the metal and he would stand there all day if that's what it would take for Steve to keep touching him.

"A friend crafted it for me out of vibranium. Strongest metal on the planet. It's light too, it doesn't pull on my back or throw off my balance."

He smiles a little, "You'll like her when you meet her. Shuri is something else."

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“Shuri? I’d love to know how she did it!” There’s no question as to the gender of the crafts person, just like there’s never been any different treatment that Steve’s given to any human being. The guy was, and still is, ahead of his time in that respect.

As Bucky turns the hand over, Steve takes his hand, palm up, in both of his. There are ridges there, the sculpting so lifelike that it might as well just be paint on an real arm.

“Can you feel this?” He asks, suddenly, giving the metal between his thumb and forefinger a pinch. It’s not malleable, like skin, but it almost feels warm.

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"She's a genius that would have given Stark a run for his money," there's a hint of dimple as he smiles this time. Wakanda had been a haven for him while he was there.

"Yeah, it's a little muted but I can feel with it." And maybe he curls his fingers around Steve's for a beat.

"The whole thing is fused to my spine to keep it anchored and she was able to tie in sensation when she made this one."

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"Stark?" It's not like Steve had spent time at the fair the night Bucky shipped not, not in any meaningful way at least. He'd been solely uninterested in the man with the hovering and exploding car. Steve lifts a questioning brow as if to indicate that it didn't matter.

A crazy thought, that, considering how incredibly instrumental Tony Stark and his father before him had been to everything that happened in the last few decades.

"Anyway, under the glove, I couldn't tell at all. Does Shuri live in the building?"

The guy's been two places. New York and New Jersey. He'd been prepared to ship off and see the world, but it's only been there for him in theater screens.

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"Howard Stark. He was pretty important to the efforts to take out HYDRA. His son," a shake of his head because how do you explain a guy like Tony Stark? "Smartest guy there ever was and a total pain in the ass at the same time."

"He saved the world too. Twice."

"She lives in Wakanda, it's a country in Africa." Bucky nods at the tablet, "I've got some pictures if you wanna see."

Bucky could reach out, see if he could take Steve to visit Wakanda. He wouldn't mind going back.

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"Yeah, I'd love to see." He knows Bucky told him that the flat piece of glass by the table could show him anything in the world, but photos? You'd need a camera for that and paper to develop it on. Steve is skeptical, and the look on his face proves it as he lets go of Bucky's hand and heads over to the couch.

He sits the way a twenty-six year old does when with a friend, a way that transcends time or formality practices, one leg up and facing his friend as he looks over his arm at the clearly remarkable device.

"You know a lot of heroes and geniuses huh?" he asks, resting one arm on his bent knee, cheek in his palm. "None of that rubbed off on you though? Shame."

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Bucky laughs as he flicks his knee in response. "Punk."

He calls up the photo album, talking Steve through all of it so he can look for himself when he'd like. "Here." A shot of him with longer hair and a beard, smiling with a pretty young woman while children mugged in the background like children have done since the camera was invented.

"That's Shuri and the border village I stayed at. It was.. so peaceful there. You wouldn't believe it," he scrolls to another picture, "but I was pretty good with the goats they raised."

"Here's the capital city," and if Steve thought modern New York was impressive he was about to be surprised.

"Her brother's the king there, T'Challa is a hell of a good man and a good leader."

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Long haired Bucky is appealing in a way that Steve wasn't sure he liked. He'd never call another man attractive, but the sudden spike in heart rate, the way his pupils dilate, and the prickling of his skin note his interest in ways he can't hide, but also don't specifically draw attention to him. He assumes they're his own embarrassment, and swallows down the lump in his throat.

Bucky's smile in the photos are incredibly familiar, and Steve can't help but smile too. He looks so happy in the images with Shuri and the children. And she looks happy too, a true beauty. Steve ignores the familiar ache likes he's always done.

"Africa looks amazing," he partially sighs, eyelids lowered as they scan every photo before Bucky can skip. "Are you dating...a princess? Buck, scoundrel, you're dating a princess and you're leaving your crap all over the floor in your house? What's wrong with you?"

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He can hear the shift in his breathing and pulse but puts it off as wonder rather than desire.

A startled laugh at the tease, "What? Me? Please, she could do a hell of a lot better than the screwed up ex-assassin she helped."

He looks for a few more pictures of the local wildlife.

"Haven't exactly been dating much," he admits. "I tried but it never felt right."

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"You're James Barnes." Steve gives Bucky a little smack, though it's careful, though he can see the skin of the bare lower arm and knows he won't hurt himself too bad. The guy still has pretty huge muscles. Not much changed there. "That's pretty much what you're good for. Being charming, fooling all of those poor girls who couldn't see through the charm, and trying to get the ones to step out with you if they did see through you." It doesn't bring Steve any joy to hear that Bucky doesn't feel like a big part of who he had been isn't there anymore. "Maybe it's because you're destined to be with Princess Shuri."

Steve doesn't believe in fate, but he does believe that if you try hard enough, you can get anything.

He got into the Army, didn't he?

Proof enough for him right there.

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"We're not like that," he protests. "Shuri is a good friend, but she's more like a little sister."

Bucky shrugs a little as he sets the tablet back on the table. "I'm not like that James anymore, not really. I don't like big crowds of people and loud noises are a problem." He thinks for a minute before coming up with a term Steve would remember instead of PTSD. "Shell shock."

"My therapist tried to get me to go out, get back into the world after what happened. So I tried. I took a nice girl out, even went and had drinks with a guy. But I went home feeling.. I don't know. Like it wasn't right."

Sexuality is so casually discussed now that he doesn't even think about what he'd just said.

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Drinks with a guy? Like, 'the guys?' That's something they use to do, though it was less 'drinks' and more like 'get into mischief.' Steve doesn't really think anything of it. "That's why you said you were--" Lonely. Alone. "I talked to this guy, Sam, he said he used to help Vets with stuff like that, get them back out into the world, that war can change people. I tried to tell him a few times that I only saw one day of basic so I couldn't really relate but-- Maybe you should talk to him. Or go out for drinks with him. You know, get your feet wet. Make friends, and then see what dating is like."

Steve jumps off of the couch, not a single bone in his body aching, and rushes to his sketchbook.

"He gave me his phone number and showed me how to use the phone."

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"Sam. Sam who works with vets," he repeats slowly. "Aw I'm gonna kill him," he mutters. When he sees the number he snorts again. "Wilson. That dick."

He goes for the tablet again, calling up a photo. Sam is all smiles and Bucky has a less than enthused look on his face.

"You mean this asshole?"

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Blue eyes widen as Steve takes the tablet from Bucky. The language had surprised him, not because of the language itself, but because Bucky a, already knows Sam, and b, surprisingly doesn't seem to like him. "He's a nice guy," Steve says, almost defensive.

And Sam is going to use this a teaching moment for Bucky to answer his damned phone sometimes because he'd been trying to tell him about this for weeks.

"What did he do to you?"

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He huffs and shakes his head. "He's all right. But he's also a pain in my ass. I mean he didn't take it personally when I broke his wings or ripped off his steering wheel when I was the Winter Soldier." The man has the patience of a saint.

"I don't know. We just.. it's complicated."

And Sam can keep his teaching moments all to himself. Bucky gets enough of that in therapy.

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“His wings? People can have wings now?” Sam never told him about that! Oh, he’s so jealous of that. If he had wings he’d go all over the place, see things from up above, get new perspectives. Bucky is going to have to be a little more careful with his explanations or they’re going to confuse things.

Like whatever the Winter Soldier is. At least from context, Steve can make some assumptions. They’re not exactly the best assumptions though, but it’s enough to get him to hold off on that sort of questioning.

He does grab Bucky’s wrist though. The metal one. “It sounds like you were the dick. Can he still fly? Did he get metal wings like your metal arm?”

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Bucky knows he needs to explain, to lay out everything that happened to him after the war. His eyes turn down to the hand on his wrist. "I.. what? Oh no, not wings like that."

And he goes back to call up an image of Falcon. "They're metal wings attached to some kind of propulsion that keeps him in the air."

Bucky rubs his eyes with his right hand. "When HYDRA had me, they turned me into something. A weapon to be feared. I was the Winter Soldier. I didn't even know who Bucky Barnes was."

"All I knew was my next mission."

He looks back at Sam's picture. "When I attacked him it was the Winter Solider. Not me."

But Sam had an easy rapport with the last Steve, one that had made him ache with longing because he didn't have that anymore. That Steve? He found a new best friend in Sam and maybe that still stings.

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“So everyone has code names? That makes it a little easier.” The pressure of Bucky’s wrist let’s up but he doesn’t take his hand away. “This is pretty incredible stuff. What do they call you now?”

Sam is the Falcon. He evidently used to be called Captain America for some odd, patriotic reason no one has explained. Bucky rubs with heroes and geniuses.

He must be called something, right?

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"They don't. I didn't want one. I needed to be Bucky again, not another name."

This time he finds pictures of all of the Avengers. The year before Thanos, the year before everything went wrong. "Steve brought everyone to Wakanda for my one hundredth birthday party. I didn't even really want one, but he didn't want me to be alone for it."

"That guy with the dark hair, that was Tony. Ironman. Thor is the big blonde guy, he comes from Asgard and shoots lightning. Bruce is there, standing by Tony." Natasha, Clint, Wanda, all of them. His friends.

"After the fall, we all just.. we scattered."